Going, Going, Gone...(Goodbye 2009)

The year 2009 was such a bliss in the making in terms of my prayer life and yet, it made it clear to me that life is just a bubble that puffs and then it's gone and never to come back.

Burdens came and I found myself on not-so-early-mornings over cups of hot tea praying to the Almighty God. These quiet moments are the ones I really cherished. These are the moments when I beckon the powers of heaven to strengthen me and then I fly and experience God's awesome wonders through His word, the Bible. Most of my prayers were answered. By the way, the requests I made were seemingly great tasks to accomplish but had proved just tiny specs of dusts for God to do.

Three people whom I know died this year. One was a woman in her late 60's, another was a dear pastor friend who was in his late 50's and the last one, a woman in her early 50's. The first two died suddenly without clues and the last one died after a long battle of breast cancer. These people were people whom I know have trusted Christ for their salvation. It reminded me of the verse that precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of His saints. (Psalms 116:15)

The last death was particularly sad because this lady was a woman who tried to cheer us and was all smiles in church even when in her last few days suffering tremendous pain behind morphines. One of the last times I talked with her she said she still wanted to see Herst Castle in California. I told her it was beautiful there on top of a hill. The last Sunday I saw her she was struggling to walk with her metal walker after church getting on a van. I never thought that would be the last time I will see her alive. We smiled and I waved goodbye. She smiled as she pulled herself to walk. That was it. Well, she did not have to go to Herst Castle because heaven is such a beautiful place that no one has ever imagined.

Sometimes, thoughts of regrets flood my mind. "If only I did this, or I should have done this." That's when I feel I want to go back to my quiet moments and let the wings of prayers lift me up. I am limited to this time in this frail body in this corrupted world but one day, I will be going,... going, and then will fly to the uttermost into the hands of the Savior who once died for me and live with Him forever in bliss.

But today, I will my life fully and will keep that one decision to be in the center of God's will. I will try to live my life with one solid goal-- to please my Master. May God help me. Happy New year.